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Sunday, 29^th
June 2008. Lil Heaven.

There’s
only me and my bro in this silent house. Every body left few minutes before I
woke up from my 2.5 hours nap. Ehhehehehee.. looks that my sleep-tight sleep is
a good reason to skip that family gathering.

Well,
im a kind of anti socialize person, im not crazy, im just lil bit unwell. Hemm.. so Matchbox 20 huh? 

Here,
in my Lil Heaven, laying down on the floor with eyes shut, with Nidji’s Aku
Ingin Pulang playing over n over, with the emptiness surround, time feels stop.
And of course, Lappi, which is since I decided to move out from Lil Heaven to
my Kosty, only be used for them to play Zuma! What a wasted.

“ditepi kota ini, ku merasa sangat sepi, berdiri
diatas karang, ku kenal wajah mu.. berikan
aq waktu.. tuk berlabuh ke peluk mu..” yups.. this is what I need now, I need
this silence, I need time to put my self together, to figure out what is happen
here, what these all mean, do I really want this.  

It
was on the way to Maninjau, was around Lembah Anai, I felt my world stop. There
were no tik-tok moment, no rushing Pipi with her mascara, eye liner, nude
lipstick, skirt, black stocking, and 9-cm Nine West. There were just Pipi with
her yellow t-shirt, shorts, red flip flop, sling African bag, and her
just-wake-up look. But I enjoy it.

Whuuuzzz…
here we are now, back to the real life, laying down in Lil Heaven. Any way.. do
i too hard to people around me? Do I too simplify this life, which is the line
that I keep saying to myself? It is why people I love see me as heartless Pipi?
Well.. i said PEOPLE I LOVE, coz I don’t care bout what all people say, unless
I love them, but.. LOVE them is not sufficient enuff to make me do what they
say, but CONSIDER it, ONLY consider it. *see.. I told you, I’m a stubborn girl
with high demand*

Here
I am now, confused, twisted.

Not
easy to GOT HERE. Not easy to drag people to this point. Not easy to feel trap,
stuck. And the worse is: Not easy to not have people to talk to when we’re
stuck. Yes.. im stuck. You’ve got to get yourself together, when you are stuck
at the moment, and you can’t get out of it. Remember that lyrics? Is it the
correct one? Hehiheiheih.. who cares.

Few
days ago in my sophisticated office, my friend played that song, and I didn’t
realize sing it too loud till some one said “ wahh.. mba Pipi bisa nyanyi juga
ya, kayanya dari dalem hati tuh. Hehhehe” damn, he’s rite!

What
is happen inside here, what is happen with me… is this just a pre-syndrome? How
to tell them? What is the red line between TIME TO STOP and TRYING TO ACCEPT?
What is the red line between SWEET DREAM and THE DREAM THAT WILL COME TRUE?

Blur.

One
thing I know, and this is ain’t easy, people I love will completely and justify
their judgment that Pipi is a selfish heartless stubborn person who is demand a
perfection while she is extremely far from it.

And
Pipi will see, feel, and think: I am alone, I better shield my self again than
screwing up, while people I love only could be a great judge without even
trying to be her FRIEND. Then Pipi will turn back to Lappi again, write
everything that across her mind, which is a reson she bought Lappi few years
ago. Ground ZERO again. Start from ZERO again.

Well,
that’s the choice. So..which option she will take? 

Sunday, February 04, 2007, 9:47:51 PM

Fight, that is what makes me here. Without fighting, I
wont get anything, that is what I acquire from my parents. Even we have to
fight for a friend.

As a youngest kid it doesn’t mean I got all I want. Instead,
I fight harder than my siblings, and then I believe I’m the strongest now. They admit it too sometimes. ehhehe..

I fight for all things I want. I won’t take CANT,
IMPOSSIBLE, or NO WAY as an answer. There must be a way for any obstacle. Fight
for something, for the one I’m into. Don’t tell me how to fight for the one you
adore, the one you want, becoz I know well how to do it. But I think I do need
something telling me how to stop it!

@ the end of 2005, I fought damn hard for something which @
last it was totally break me down into a little pieces. Like roller coaster, it turned me up and down, ended me
up in a ditch. Thrown like a rotten veggie. Neglected like a dirty shabby
thing.

I was younger, naïve, a victim.

@ the end of 2006, I fought again. Learn from the previous
lesson, I didn’t do as hard as before. But still, as a typical Sagitarian, and
a great lesson acquired, my instinct led my head again. And again, @ last I
found it didn’t fight for me @ all. My time, my energy, even my pride I bet on
it. Did it do the same thing as me? No! I thought it was different, I’m wrong,

There is no red line between naïve and having positive
thinking to others but those lead you to extremely different life direction. I
may learn not to fight for creature with a dick. It may takes time, I may fail
for the start, but @ least I fight to shield this heart. For my own sake.

@ the end of 2007? Tell you after passed that time.

* been almost a year keep in hard disk.*

Dec 2^nd,2.30
am . Don’t know
why, suddenly I woke up. Check the phone, unlike any other years, so silent. No
sms, no call. Hheyyy guys… this is my bday, r u guys 4get bout tht? Hehehhe…
kidding.

BB called me,12.01 am. . I overslept at that time.

 Let me think bout
my other bday. Hhhemmmm…

- always
spend it with different boyfriend. *damn! *

- was in
bali last year.

- many
sms or call. I even tried hard to stay awake for the whole nite so I wont
missed any.

- Bday
surprise is always be a great thing, don’t care who give it. Duo, boyfriend,
mom. Why? Coz it means cares and affection given. Last year Chan surprised me
with sundae brownies with lil candle on it, n the waitress sang! Gosh Chan, it
was SWEET n GREAT, they might think we’re lesbian. …Ihihihihihi…And, as a GOOD
friend, I surprised her too, with the unpredictable guy who suddenly popped up
and introduced as my NEW boyfriend. Hehehe.. remember that Chan?

- Someone
in my Ym buddy list put HAPPY BDAY TO PIPI in his status. Some pple may think
it is a small stuff, for me.. It was remarkable!

- Papa
carried me, yes he was treat me like a lil gurl. It was almost happen in every
year, and it stop from last year. Lose him forever. Miss him a lot.

- It
wasn’t bout what I got, but it always bout got something on ur bday. as always, bday gift is something I love from bday. hehehehhehe.. still lil gurl here

- red rose on my desk !

- Last
not least, I was all that! Duo, boyfriend, great friends, good job, and family
surely. 

How
bout this year?
It
is running well, dec 2^nd been 5.29 hours. Many things could be
happen.

What’s
the BIG plan for today?
Don’t
have any. Mom stop talking to me since last nite, I know why, but I couldn’t
resist it.

 
The
gift I’ll die for?
Bucket
of chocolate, must be including white dark choco.

 
How
bout shoes?
I’ll
get it from BB. Nine West is on sale Bih;)

How
bout something for your brain?Chan
will provide that kinda gift. Hehhehehe.. isn’t Chan?

What’s
the priority?
Oil
n gas company, Tbk. 

Will
there be a wedding next year?
Sure.
My friends’ wedding. My Duo’s wedding (hopefully she find her Heartbeat).

      
       How
bout yours? Next year?
       No
plan to do it next year, but.. there are 12 months in a year huh.. and it only
         require bout 6 months preparation. how bout tht?

 
What
distinguish this bday from others?
Having
person who cares a lot bout me, put me on 1^st place almost all the
time. Will have SHOES! I made mom cry, it was a NICE way to start this day.

How
bout your ex?
What?
Why? Nothing indicates they put this bday in their agenda. I wont bother if they
don’t, have no space for me anymore. But if there is, I really appreciate it.
They must be become a good friend of mine now. 

The
first 10 pple give a bday wish?
1.
mas heru (early bday wish)
2.
lita (too early also)
3.
BB Hone, 12.01
4.
Mas Q, 4.03
5.
Babay, 5.37
6.
Ni Tat, around 6
7.
Della, 6.30
8.
Chandi, 6.31
9.
My sista, 6.51
10.
Keleeq, 7.14 (Leeq, u r really a good man! Glad we’re still friend after we
failed. )
well,
can I add two more buddies plz? these gurls are my old friend (heeemm.. sure I can, this is my
blog)
11.
Dece!!!
12. Rahma, binal itu menular ma!!

5
words represent the 26-years-old Pipi?
1.
smart
2.
mature
3.
attractive
4.
fighter
5.
survivor
how
bout six? Can i? sure Pip!
6.
flirty

 
What
time is it now?
timeless  *i wish*

where
are you?
in
Lil Heaven

what’s
the important of celebrating bday?
Bday
gift?
Move
on by crossing out name crowding and holding me back.
Being
grateful. It is not every year I ALL that. Well.. I might not really ALL that,
but at least that’s what I feel now. Family, Duo, great and nice friends,
hot-seat job, and a guy like Raka. The last one is a bless HE bestows me,
unspeakable mercy.

Feels that it’s been so long time ago since the last time I write something, besides official and report to Daddy of course.
And it’s been (very..very..very..) long time ago since the last time I felt my life is so perfect.

Well, it was around December 2005 the last time I walked in the cloud.
I had a great friend, we trust each other, countable person but believe me that I never took her for granted. A person to whom I could share any thing across my mind, even a stupid humiliating stuffs. And many other things we used to share.
I had a perfect lover, eeuumm.. you know, at that time I thought he is perfect.
I had supportive family.
A job that give a large contribution to my happiness.
Bunch of friends, in real life and in cyber world. Specifically, YM! ………..Ihihihehieheihe….
Life was good. Great actually!!

Recently I came to my crème de la crème office (that’s what we call our tranquil-silent-exclusively placed on 9th floor office, which is the same floor with owner and only for several people …….heheheheh…) little bit late, very late actually, since Daddy still on his summer holiday so I don’t have a “baby” that I need to take care of.
I don’t remember what leaded me to think about the perfect life I (feel) have now. It was when I was on the way to my “creamy” office when suddenly I realize that my life is perfecto now.

People come and go, of course. It because we do not have unlimited space for them to stay at once.
People develop (this is in courtesy of Chan. Hi Chan), it is for sure. Our needs also develop. What made us happy yesterday might not be same with things that make us happy tomorrow, agree?

Few people who used to make my life perfecto now somewhere a part of this earth. Some, I don’t even know where they are. Some, don’t want or have no time to spend with me anymore. One, leave me for ever, and I believe he’s watching me writing this from up there.
Smart-sweet-financially-and-emotionally-stable lover is no longer count as the ladder to the cloud.
Being a single fighter and well done, “Mom” of adult kids, and being the apple of the boss no longer hold me back.

Let go people who don’t wanna be with you, stop thinking bout them. This aint easy for sure.
Fight for something you already have, if you think it is that worthy.
Chase things you wanna have, stop only if someone might get hurt.
Revenge, the sweet one, and if you think it might help to heal the wound.

Perfect life.
That’s what I feel now, it is a bless.
I think there is no need to mention who and what play role here. Just stay with me, and you’ll know who/what in the list are.

Back to the last perfecto moment, now a different people around, a different things happen. The same feeling arise.

Thanks to you guys.

Well, this is what I call

………….. Life goes on ………………..

To the men who, at least ever, content my days

(genuine thanks, guys)

Kalo aja aku enggak ketemu

Virdy, aq ngk akan yakin klo CINTA ngk harus miliki, SAYANG ngk boleh bikin lebam

Aji, aq ngk akan tau kalo SOULMATE itu ada, walo posisinya enggak akan selamanya.

Anton, aq ngk akan tau klo cowok SMART itu sexy, dan tipe itu yang aku butuhin.

Frederico, aq enggak akan pernah tau bahwa COWOK ternyata ada juga yang EMBER, dan WAKTU bisa bikin aq maafin kesalahan seseorang.

Fajar, aq ngk akan tau kalo dunia kerja bisa asik banget. Coffee Club, bro!

Keliq, aq ngk akan ngalamin tetep jadi TEMEN setelah ternyata kami ngk cocok JADIAN, dan ternyata ada TEMEN yang selalu berusaha tuk ada saat dibutuhin.

Wanto, aq mungkin enggak akan pernah setuju klo KERJA itu bisa berasa SERU. Bisa sambil angkat kaki dibangku sambil makan somay, ato pecicilan pesen es podeng lewat jendela lt. 4. trus nenteng2 spanduk, ehh,.. ternyata enggak dapet profit sharing… wekkkss.,… huuehuehe….WAAHH.. KECEWAAHHH

Ventha, mungkin aq ngk akan ngakuin klo ternyata enggak semua yang kita MAU tu harus kita DAPETIN, gimana pun caranya, sekuat apapun usaha kita.

RC, aq pastinya enggak akan menghargai setiap detik yang bisa aq lewatin bareng pasangan,dan itu enggk bisa dibeli dengan apapun. Ngk bisa diganti dengan MATERI.

Adi, pastinya aq harus bayar guide waktu ke Bali . hehehehe… yang jelas, aq jadi tau klo PENEGASAN itu = MUTLAK. Kita enggak bisa keluar-masuk hidup orang seenaknya. Itu bukan ingus yang sah2 aja keluar-masuk idung, ini tentang PERASAAN.

Kris, pastinya aq akan MASIH AJA terlalu NAÏVE dalam nyikapin orang, berfikikir klo orang itu enggak sejelek yang orang bilang, dan akhirnya ngakuin klo MEREKA BENER!
Trus, aq juga jadi tau klo aq suka KETEGASAN, KEJELASAN, dan PEJUANG!

SG the Daddy, aq pasti belom ada contoh kerja enggak perlu sering2 LEMBUR, yang penting MANFAATIN WORING HOURS dgn bener. How can im not love u boz!

BB, aq pastinya enggak akan pernah tau kalo temen, sahabat, bodyguard, adek, kakak, great listener + great story teller, amazing sweet-romantic lover, remarkably  understanding person, ridiculous creature, Art Director of Photo Bego, DJ, manusia santun, dan seorang  pendendam… bisa ada dalam satu orang. Enggak usah pencet2 tombol, dia udah bisa nyesuaiin secara otomatis kira2 MODE apa yang harus dipake.

Dan … kalo aja Papa bukan papa ku, aku enggak akan pernah yakin kalo ternyata PERNIKAHAN yang DAMAI itu ada, bukan dongeng.

…nabung itu penting,
hidup harus punya prinsip,

berjuang untuk semua yang aq mau,

hidup sederhana (yang ini susah Pap  ),

down to earth,
ngabdi ke orangtua,

jadi manusia harus berguna,

teges,

yang terakhir,
…
orang baik itu meninggalnnya gampang.

Rest in peace Pap. Hope you hear my pray, n love flowers I bring u every week.

*yang namanya enggak ada diatas, bukan berarti enggak cinta niy… ya udah,boleh rikues testi deh… eheheheh*

Yes, I tend to be hi-temper person now. I yield to bus driver, I yield to
Narmah, I cant tolerate lil mistake, I hit the ceiling to irresistible stuff, I scream to parking man, enrage even to lil things that I’m not suppose to. Even more words : “Tampar
yah!!” or “Kyanya nampar orang enak banget niy”, seems to be polite words to
say in all occasions.
My heart beat fast, I can feel my blood flow faster than
usual, try hard to control this anger, then restless seems all bones melt.
I’m
change, I turn to be a blunt rude creature.

 After a few weeks being in this mood without knowing exactly what occur
or lay beneath, at last I know what it is. The unsolved thing!

Just realize that this monster inside has been taking control me since
an emotional circumstances I faced. Well, for short, actually I could defend
myself more than what I did. i should let my 9-cm-heel landed on his head. Let the rage inside out and then no unsolved thing
left.

Since I know what is the reason of all this outrage Pipi, I’ve been
trying to solve, and overcome it, but I don’t care to say that I think I’m
gonna see some help to do it. Only for one reason, back to the genuine PIPI.

*Bb, thanks for standing by me during my up-and-down mood. Balancing my
life when I’m dealing with monster inside me. Lo vu mo en mo.
 

Lil heaven, 11.15
p, 7 months after we all walk Papa to his  last crib.

Hi dear…happy 1st month
i know it just a begining of our journey..a month full of excitement, joy and tears
Baby…i dont know what purpose God sent you for me and how long it will be
but…..
I thank to Him for lend you for me
Lov u n  mis u

* My dear Raka send me this with love. I think this is too good to keep for myself*

People
come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you
know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When
someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have
expressed.

They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and
support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may
seem like a godsend and they are.

They are
there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without
any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

This
person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes
they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes
they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we
must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled,

Their
work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered

And now
it is time to move on.

Some
people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share,
Grow or learn.

They
bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may
teach you something you have never done.

They
usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe
it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME
relationships teach you lifetime lessons, Things you must build upon in order
to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job
is to accept the lesson,

Love the
person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and
areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is
clairvoyant.

Type ur reactions when somebody say these phrases to you. ************************************** 

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT? * Like what??

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU. * where have u been?

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOU’LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME. * give me one reason why

COME ON.SMILE.YOU’RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT. * just back off

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO. * screw you

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU. * not untill u feel bored with all my effort to fight for this relation

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY? * dont be bother

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME? * cool

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DO YOU KNOW THAT? * yeah, coz i realize that im special long before u

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU. * so?

I CAN’T SMILE WITHOUT YOU! * u jerk!

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN’T HIM/HER. * did i give u smthing?

NOTHING. * what do you mean?

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER? * i’ll missed call u

MAY I HAVE THIS DANCE? * hhemmm..

MAY I ESCORT YOU? * i can do it myself

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW? * who? which BOYS?

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED. * no im not. @ least not until we got married, im 30’s years old, than to have sex with your 22-years-old-sexy-hot-fresh-graduate-co worker.

WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES? * darling, im not 17 yo babes, ur sweet pathetic words not gonna work wid me.

So.. what do you think guys?

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Miss Pipi (11:57:34 PM): i torture pple who hurt me, ait ez to hurt miss pipi Miss Pipi (11:57:39 PM): aint Barney (11:57:52 PM): ga baik dendam Miss Pipi (11:58:02 PM): euumm…hheemmm… Miss Pipi (11:58:52 PM): g malah (katanya) terlalu pemaaf, tp buat kasus2 tertentu, ato klo dah smp dijahatin bgt.. g akan bales, lbh parah Barney (11:58:52 PM): eheum ehuem juga Miss Pipi (11:59:09 PM): tht’s wht i did last friday, but.. Barney (11:59:10 PM): okdeh Miss Pipi (11:59:22 PM): still, i feel nothing Barney (11:59:36 PM): emang kenapajuga? Miss Pipi (11:59:37 PM): not even haappy to see him pay Barney (11:59:53 PM): ? 3/11/2007 Barney (12:00:02 AM): i dont really follw pi Miss Pipi (12:00:16 AM): ok, make it short Miss Pipi (12:00:40 AM): he played me, i dnt accept it. Miss Pipi (12:00:55 AM): last friday, i make him PAY it Barney (3/11/2007 12:01:17 AM): ok ok Miss Pipi (3/11/2007 12:01:25 AM): after the plan was done, i disnt feel hapy, not guilty also Barney (12:01:48 AM): so what seems to be the problem? Miss Pipi (12:01:50 AM): am i normal? Barney (12:01:59 AM): u not satisfy yet dont u? Miss Pipi (12:02:18 AM): ehhmmm.. may be u rite, im not satisfy yet] Barney (12:02:21 AM): so i guess u still not let go of him Miss Pipi (12:02:36 AM): u rite again i guess Miss Pipi (12:02:43 AM): Barney (12:02:50 AM): Barney (12:03:00 AM): u askingthe master of pain baby Barney (12:03:24 AM): i thing u re normal Barney (12:03:33 AM): its just a process Barney (12:03:55 AM): to get used to Miss Pipi (12:04:00 AM): i’ve done the PAIN phase Barney (12:04:28 AM): usually after the pain is gone the anger is come up Miss Pipi (12:04:38 AM): when the pain come over n over, u’ll get use to wid it, even u gona miss it when it’s gone Miss Pipi (12:04:49 AM): pain is addictive Miss Pipi (12:05:23 AM): anger after pain? i never notice ths. Barney (12:05:30 AM): for some people..pain is greater than laugh Miss Pipi (12:05:36 AM): Miss Pipi (12:05:58 AM): pain makes me here, stronger n stronger, tough Pipi Miss Pipi (12:06:13 AM): independent me Barney (12:06:33 AM): thats allright Miss Pipi (12:06:46 AM): *inhale..* Miss Pipi (12:06:54 AM): *xhale* Miss Pipi (12:07:04 AM): *sambil gigit burger* Barney (12:07:05 AM): kayaaerobic aja Miss Pipi (12:07:22 AM): bukannn..kya senam orang hamil Barney (7 12:07:35 AM): asiiik Miss Pipi (007 12:07:45 AM): asik??? Miss Pipi (12:07:48 AM): Barney (12:07:59 AM): burgeer Miss Pipi (12:08:09 AM): Miss Pipi (12:08:13 AM): oowww.. Barney (12:08:20 AM): laper gw Miss Pipi (12:08:52 AM): well, i dnt count calories, i dnt mind having cheese buger after midnite Miss Pipi (12:08:56 AM): Barney (12:09:11 AM): heheheheheheforget the diet huh? Miss Pipi (312:09:20 AM): never diet Barney (12:09:27 AM): hebaaat Miss Pipi (12:09:41 AM): lose 2 pounds in a week *new job* Barney (12:09:50 AM): good Barney (12:09:55 AM): for u Miss Pipi (12:10:17 AM): not good….. Miss Pipi (12:10:24 AM): pipi g ngk chubby lagi… Miss Pipi (12:10:26 AM): Miss Pipi (12:10:35 AM): itukan daya tarik nomor 2 terbesar Miss Pipi (12:10:39 AM): Barney (12:10:43 AM): hehehehekoq malahseneng jadi chubby Barney (12:10:56 AM): perempua yg aneh Miss Pipi (12:11:06 AM): welcom 2 d ckub Miss Pipi (12:11:08 AM): !!!! Miss Pipi (12:11:10 AM): club Barney (12:11:12 AM): hahahahahaha Miss Pipi (12:11:15 AM): bukan cuman lo yg bilang gt Miss Pipi (12:11:42 AM): enuff bout me, how bout u? Miss Pipi (12:11:49 AM): how life treat u? Barney (12:12:08 AM): life suck mampus hahahahahahaha Miss Pipi (12:12:15 AM): knp lagi>? Barney (12:12:24 AM): ga kenapa napa Barney (12:12:34 AM): heheheeheheheheh Miss Pipi (12:12:45 AM): gmn kerjaan? Barney (12:12:54 AM): never better Barney (12:12:57 AM): Miss Pipi (12:13:10 AM): walahhhh Barney (12:13:19 AM): Barney (12:13:54 AM): nothing intersting about my life Barney (12:14:01 AM): just ordinarylife Miss Pipi (12:14:29 AM): not agree, it’s all bout how u see it, how tell d world bout it Miss Pipi (12:14:40 AM): *sok tua* Miss Pipi (12:14:43 AM): Barney (12:14:51 AM): hellyeah Miss Pipi (12:15:04 AM): Miss Pipi (12:15:11 AM): lagi Barney (12:15:18 AM): Barney (12:15:40 AM): flat life Miss Pipi (12:16:47 AM): not when u get into mine, as roller coster… it ups n down.. xcitment.. make u puke somtimes Miss Pipi (12:16:52 AM): cry… scream Miss Pipi (12:16:54 AM): Barney (12:17:05 AM): hehehehe iwish Miss Pipi (12:17:11 AM): Miss Pipi (12:17:57 AM): kadang g suka kasian ma orang2 yg masuk ke hidup g, mereka kya naik roler cster Miss Pipi (12:18:23 AM): seharusnya mrk seneng, tp kadang responnya aneh2 Barney (12:18:29 AM): oh ya koq bisa? Miss Pipi (12:18:37 AM): Barney (12:18:56 AM): hidup lorock n roll yah Barney (12:19:14 AM): damn keyboardnya rusak…. Miss Pipi (12:19:17 AM): i’m complicated n complete person *pple who know me well said so* Barney (12:19:33 AM): oh okay Miss Pipi (12:19:34 AM): rock n rol?? dah ngk jaman kalii Miss Pipi (12:19:38 AM): Barney (12:19:43 AM): not so supprised Barney (12:19:50 AM): Miss Pipi (12:19:52 AM): means? Miss Pipi (12:20:04 AM): Barney (12:20:19 AM): sagitarian people, seem to be more complicated Miss Pipi (12:20:22 AM): = Miss Pipi (12:20:24 AM): Barney (12:20:32 AM): as far asi can see Miss Pipi (12:20:34 AM): no we’re not Barney (12:20:35 AM): : Miss Pipi (12:20:40 AM): ok thennnn Miss Pipi (12:21:03 AM): complicated n complete package Barney (12:21:22 AM): well done Miss Pipi (12:21:38 AM): Miss Pipi (12:22:06 AM): ka Barney (12:22:11 AM): yak Miss Pipi (12:22:12 AM): kita kenalan dmn yah? Miss Pipi (12:22:24 AM): Barney (12:22:34 AM): di stadium waktu itu lo mabok di dj boothhehehehe Miss Pipi (12:22:39 AM): Barney (12:22:40 AM): kidding Miss Pipi (3/11/2007 12:22:41 AM): Barney (12:22:51 AM): di jalan gajah mada Miss Pipi (12:22:57 AM): hehhh?? Barney (12:23:34 AM): di mana lagi kalo bukan di YM Miss Pipi (12:23:47 AM): i mean how? Miss Pipi (12:23:54 AM): chat room? Barney (12:24:14 AM): iya lah apa lagi ya Miss Pipi (12:24:25 AM): whr have u been then Miss Pipi (12:24:27 AM): ? Barney (12:24:51 AM): Indonesia Miss Pipi (12:24:54 AM): Barney (12:24:56 AM): emang kemana lagi? Miss Pipi (12:25:03 AM): u knw wht..? Barney (12:25:12 AM): what? Miss Pipi (12:25:52 AM): i didt wake up wid smile yesterday, but @ least u sum it up wid smile. thx for it. Barney (12:25:56 AM): horeee your new avatar!!!!! Miss Pipi (12:26:07 AM): now..old 1, but never use it Barney (12:26:21 AM): thanks Miss Pipi (12:26:34 AM): im narcist, so.. y should i show my avatar instead of my cute mafe? Miss Pipi (12:26:39 AM): Barney (12:26:49 AM): mafe? Miss Pipi (12:26:50 AM): face Barney (12:26:54 AM): face Miss Pipi (12:26:56 AM): salahhhketik sampe ngaco Miss Pipi (12:26:59 AM): Miss Pipi (12:27:00 AM): Barney (3/11/2007 12:27:03 AM): ngantuk ya Miss Pipi (12:27:08 AM): ngk bgt Miss Pipi (12:27:10 AM): u? Barney (12:27:15 AM): tidur deh kalo ngantuk Barney (12:27:25 AM): masihada kerjaan pi Miss Pipi (12:27:31 AM): bilang aja lo ngnatuk, jgn jadiin g alesan Barney (12:27:38 AM): jam 2maen di kemang Miss Pipi (12:27:42 AM): ooow.. i c Miss Pipi (12:27:51 AM): ya udah.. Barney (12:27:57 AM): jadinunggu sambil dl Barney (12:28:02 AM): gitu Barney (12:28:33 AM): bilang aja lo ngnatuk, jgn jadiin g alesan Barney (12:28:47 AM): pipi: bilang aja lo ngnatuk, jgn jadiin g alesan Barney (12:29:04 AM): hehehehe gw kaya dejavu deh pi ngobrol ma lo Miss Pipi (12:29:15 AM): eeehh…. Miss Pipi (12:29:18 AM): Miss Pipi (12:29:23 AM): masa cihh?? Barney (12:29:28 AM): iya Miss Pipi (12:29:29 AM): Miss Pipi (12:29:36 AM): coz i feel so too Miss Pipi (12:29:44 AM): Miss Pipi (12:29:55 AM): feels talk to myself Barney (12:30:03 AM): zaman2 gw sering di marah2 in sama mantan Miss Pipi (12:30:21 AM): Miss Pipi (12:30:23 AM): Miss Pipi (12:30:32 AM): no..no… Miss Pipi (12:30:50 AM): respon g tergantung ma perlakuan orang k g ko Barney (12:31:12 AM): ok ok percaya koq pi Barney (12:31:33 AM): tenang.. gw juga ga nyama2in orang koq Miss Pipi (12:31:46 AM): Barney (12:32:01 AM): pipi: coz i feel so too pipi: pipi: feels talk to myself Barney (12:32:46 AM): why? Miss Pipi (12:32:49 AM): yupsss.. coz ur words is predictable, feels talk to myself Barney (12:32:52 AM): theres no body to talk to? Barney (12:33:18 AM): my world? Miss Pipi (12:33:26 AM): word Barney (12:33:55 AM): ooh realy Miss Pipi (12:33:55 AM): nice to talk 2 u ka Barney (12:34:33 AM): nice to talk to u too pi Miss Pipi (12:34:35 AM): smile summed up my day, smile open up today. hope i wake up wid smile 2morw Barney (12:34:37 AM): Miss Pipi (12:34:55 AM): *ngk sia2 g online * Barney (12:34:58 AM): harusnya begitu pi Miss Pipi (12:34:59 AM): Barney (12:35:05 AM): hehehehehe Barney (12:35:08 AM): Miss Pipi (12:35:12 AM): Miss Pipi (12:35:28 AM): barney…kamu lucu cekaliii Miss Pipi (12:35:31 AM): gemmeeezzz Miss Pipi (12:35:45 AM): klo ketemu boleh peyuk2 yahhh Barney (12:35:47 AM): heheheheh u knowwhat Miss Pipi (12:35:50 AM): wht? Barney (12:35:58 AM): no one call me barney before Miss Pipi (12:36:07 AM): ooowww.. ooppsss Miss Pipi (12:36:23 AM): ooowww.. ooppsss Barney (12:36:32 AM): but i i likeit when u call it Miss Pipi (12:36:35 AM): do u mind? Miss Pipi (12:36:40 AM): Miss Pipi (12:36:41 AM): Barney (12:36:43 AM): nope i lke it Miss Pipi (12:37:00 AM): jadi klo ktm boleh peyuk2 yahh Miss Pipi (12:37:10 AM): boleh jitak dikit yahhh Miss Pipi (12:37:18 AM): boleh tendang dikit yahh Barney (12:37:22 AM): boleh boleh Miss Pipi (12:37:25 AM): boleehhh..jambak juga yahh Barney (12:37:33 AM): jambak apanya? Miss Pipi (12:37:35 AM): Miss Pipi (12:37:41 AM): bulu kaki Miss Pipi (12:37:42 AM): Barney (12:37:46 AM): oh man Barney (12:37:50 AM): dont do that Miss Pipi (12:37:54 AM): Miss Pipi (12:37:57 AM): Miss Pipi (12:38:16 AM): lo mo jln jam brp? Barney (12:39:33 AM): nunggu dl selesai bentar lagi Miss Pipi (12:39:42 AM): lg dmn sih niy? Barney (12:39:44 AM): kenapa?mau ikut ya? Barney (12:40:09 AM): di warnet gandaria Miss Pipi (12:40:13 AM): boleh pake piyama aja ngkk?? Miss Pipi (12:40:14 AM): Barney (12:40:15 AM): lo dimana pi? Miss Pipi (12:40:25 AM): lil heaven Miss Pipi (12:40:28 AM): Barney (12:40:29 AM): boleh tapi bwahnya ga pake apapa2 Miss Pipi (12:40:30 AM): my room Miss Pipi (12:40:34 AM): Miss Pipi (12:40:36 AM): Miss Pipi (12:40:37 AM): Barney (12:40:45 AM): jadi dancer, sexy dancer Miss Pipi (12:40:54 AM): gogo dancer Miss Pipi (12:40:56 AM): Miss Pipi (12:41:10 AM): halllaahhh..kbanyakan party niy Barney (12:41:11 AM): hehehehehe Barney (12:41:16 AM): boleh lah Barney (12:41:25 AM): iya kemarenbaru 2hari Miss Pipi (12:41:41 AM): apanya 2 hari? Miss Pipi (12:41:48 AM): parti? Barney (12:41:50 AM): party Miss Pipi (12:42:06 AM): love party? Barney (12:42:13 AM): love barney? Miss Pipi (12:42:18 AM): Miss Pipi (12:42:27 AM): nice question Barney (12:42:29 AM): barney job is make party Miss Pipi (12:42:55 AM): u make me smile all d time, ths is wht i need Barney (12:43:11 AM): hehehehe wong ga sengaja ya Miss Pipi (12:43:20 AM): i cant stand wid loud music Miss Pipi (12:43:29 AM): Miss Pipi (12:43:37 AM): tp ngk anti Barney (12:43:39 AM): its okay Barney (12:44:10 AM): people have their own genre Miss Pipi (12:44:16 AM): do not drink also Miss Pipi (12:44:30 AM): d last time was in bali, on my bday Miss Pipi (12:44:41 AM): *sialan tuh anak2.. * Barney (12:44:46 AM): me too,i dont drink even beer since i start play Miss Pipi (12:45:08 AM): well.. we hv totally diff world Miss Pipi (12:45:30 AM): my world is on daylite, ur’s.. @ nite Barney (12:45:32 AM): thats mean about 3 year Miss Pipi (12:45:46 AM): wow! Barney (12:45:49 AM): sekali2 beer dulu iya Barney (12:45:58 AM): cuma skrg malah cuma coke Barney (12:46:11 AM): orang 2 di bar biasanya pada bingung…. Miss Pipi (12:46:17 AM): really? on party only cola? Barney (12:46:19 AM): dj koq g aminum hehehehehe Barney (12:46:23 AM): yue Barney (12:46:26 AM): yupe Miss Pipi (12:46:36 AM): yuppsss .. bukan cuman mrk, g jg bingung Barney (12:46:50 AM): kalo gw minum mana boleh sholat shubuh Miss Pipi (12:47:18 AM): r u trying to impress me wid tht SOLAT stuff or wht? Miss Pipi (12:47:28 AM): coz if it so, .. it works! Barney (12:47:35 AM): nope Barney (12:47:47 AM): just tryn the truth among the friend Miss Pipi (12:47:47 AM): *sambil cari charger.. low bet niyyy* Miss Pipi (12:48:19 AM): ooowwww…. kamu begitu mengesankan cekali barneyyy *basi bgt sehhh si pipi* Barney (12:48:27 AM): cuma bercerita aja pi Miss Pipi (12:48:27 AM): Barney (12:48:58 AM): ah udah ahga usah diterusin…..gw takut jadi riya gw Miss Pipi (12:49:06 AM): ciiyyeee…… Miss Pipi (12:49:14 AM): crita lagi donmggg Miss Pipi (12:49:27 AM): ngk riya klo g yang rikues Barney (12:49:33 AM): boong ding tadi gw ngarang hehehehe Barney (12:49:39 AM): Miss Pipi (12:49:41 AM): iiiyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Miss Pipi (07 12:49:53 AM): ttg solat itu boong? Miss Pipi (12:49:57 AM): Barney (12:50:41 AM): yaga lah Miss Pipi (12:50:51 AM): Miss Pipi (12:51:02 AM): skarang lagi chat ma byk orang yah Miss Pipi (12:51:11 AM): replynya jd lama Barney (12:51:12 AM): ga juga Miss Pipi (12:51:14 AM): Barney (12:51:25 AM): di smping gw ada temen gw lagi dl Barney (12:51:29 AM): juga Barney (12:51:50 AM): trus pada mau denger track yg gw dl Barney (12:51:58 AM): jadi agak2 interupted Miss Pipi (12:52:04 AM): ooowww… ic Miss Pipi (12:52:38 AM): diff world, stranger pple, meet in cyber world Barney (12:54:11 AM): hehehehe who strange? Barney (12:54:20 AM): we arestrange pipol Barney (12:54:25 AM): pipoool Miss Pipi (12:54:25 AM): yuppss Miss Pipi (12:54:30 AM): apaan tuh? Barney (12:55:17 AM): peopllepeople Miss Pipi (12:55:29 AM): haiiyahhh Barney (12:55:55 AM): ribet pi sorry Barney (12:56:00 AM): hehehehehe Miss Pipi (12:56:09 AM): i understnd, ini jam sibuk nya lo Miss Pipi (12:56:10 AM): Barney (12:56:16 AM): transfer file Barney (12:56:24 AM): thanks Miss Pipi (12:56:29 AM): ngk papa.. take ur time Barney (12:56:36 AM): udahlama ga ada yg ngerti gw Miss Pipi (12:56:41 AM): Barney (12:56:44 AM): thanks ya pi Miss Pipi (12:57:10 AM): jam segini = senin paginya g Miss Pipi (12:57:17 AM): jam ribet Barney (12:57:17 AM): hehehehehe Barney (12:57:28 AM): pi i think i have to go Miss Pipi (12:57:32 AM): ok Barney (12:57:37 AM): iya jam ribet ku nih Barney (12:57:41 AM): bye pi Barney (12:57:45 AM): Miss Pipi (12:57:48 AM): take care Barney (12:57:52 AM): baek patah tuh leher Miss Pipi (07 12:57:56 AM): Miss Pipi (12:57:57 AM): Miss Pipi (12:58:01 AM): last hug? Barney (12:58:02 AM): u 2 sweet dream Barney (12:58:14 AM): Miss Pipi (12:58:17 AM): Miss Pipi (12:58:23 AM): hushh..sana pergi Barney (12:58:39 AM): bye Barney (12:58:43 AM): Miss Pipi (12:58:46 AM): Barney (3:39:46 PM):